World Cocoon

so the first day of 2010 is on it’s end, and i’ve spent it wrapped in thinking about 2009 and fixing up my decade/year best of lists, flipping my bad kitties calender to january, and playing video games (new mario wii, shadow complex and bionic commando rearmed). so all in all nothing has changed. but, hopefully after today my head will be swiveled forward and ready to look into the now that is the future. and stuff.

i plan on not saying the word ‘like’ and the word ‘awesome’. or at least trying. itll be rough cause thats like half my fucking volcabulary. sorry i cant stop saying ‘fucking’.

Well it had to come sooner or later, another end of year wrapy uppy survey thing. i do them every year, too bad for you.

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?

Watched chinatown, worked in a bookstore, cut someone open, didnt go to icon for the first time in 15 years, met niki, watched lost, shoveled and didn’t fall over. Its was a quiet year.

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn’t make any this past year, i’m really just gonna do them as i think of em.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

Not that i can remember. if i missed your baby im sorry!

4. Did anyone close to you die?
i lost someone really close to me, and some close to those i know, and that feels just as horrible.

5. What countries did you visit?
only new ones in video games; the mushroom kingdom, that country in call of duty, and of course the kick ass metal fantasy land of brutal legend.

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
a better job, a new comic, i would still like a new place lol

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
the day i lost my bolivian brother, and the day i met niki, both for obvious reasons.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
i cant think of any real achievements from this year, nothing that stands out as an accomplishment. I did unlock all the achievements in 1 vrs 100 on xbox live. thats not bad i guess. i unlocked some mental achievements too.

9. What was your biggest failure?
i dont feel like i failed, unless its not getting enough work done. then ive failed amazingly. motivate me, failure! didnt get super powers either.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
My body runs on illness.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
hmmm. i dont even know. cat toy sushi for claude. the ghostbusters game was pretty awesome. and i had some delicious burgers.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

i really cant think of one for this.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
prob the management where i work, and all the cretins in the world that somehow think theyre more important than anyone else and people should be left to be sick.

14. Where did most of your money go?
the year went with me not having so much money, so mostly bills and pills.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
kinda the same as last year – watching claude grow, hanging with the lady, seeing fishbone some more, great art, seeing my 202 buddays and all my friends getting married!

16. What songs will always remind you of 2009?
well, here are my top ten listened to songs of 09 as determened by my last.fm scrobbler.

radiohead – bangers and mash
ryan adams – beautiful sorta
pearl jam – the fixer
pearl jam – johnny guitar
ryan adams – anybody wanna take me home
morrissey – something is squeezing my skull
radiohead – reckoner
pearl jam – gonna see my friend
the dismemberment plan – come home
pearl jam – got some

17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
i think im somewhere in the middle.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
worked more and wrote/drew more. wish i had gotten out more as well.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
unfufilling sleepiness again. this year i will conquer it.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
already spent it. was i supposed to do this earlier or something?

21. the amount of times i turned off wwe in disgust.

22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
2009 was full of love and heartbreak, but it ended on an upnote i think.

23. How many one night stands?
none! none!! many multi night fallasleep snorefests tho.

24. What were your favourite TV programmes?
dexter, lost, breaking bad

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
only cause i started working so late in the year.

26. What was the best book you read?
hmmmm, ive read alot this year. high fidelity.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
off the top of my head, while theyre are a lot of great albums out by groups i already knew of, i think this year is when i first stumbled upon jaydiohead.

28. What did you want and get?
more coffee. fishbone for my birthday.

29. What did you want and not get?
so much.

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
district 9, the cove…see my list.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
went to see fishbone, the greatest band in the world, with some of my best buds. it was a great time. i hit split 8, and i shall stay there.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
life

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
the same as usual but this year there were more pants and more coats.

34. What kept you sane?
not much. music, ron and fez, and seeing fishbone always helps.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
for some reason this year i gained a crush on erin burnett, and claire from lost.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

ill add one to the amazing bubbling of selfish people, somehow supporting a corporation bailout but scoff at individual bailout; the ignorant cretins that oppose health care for everyone. so selfish.

37. Who did you miss?
bunches of people i dont see enough, bolivia the mostest.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
niki

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009.
hug.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
I kinda like the way you dot your J’s
With giant circles of naïveté
The kind of circles include everything
Don’t mean to damn you with the faintest praise
It’s just a symptom of the blithe age
Walter Lippman, he would be amazed.

i’m pretty sure this year i am going to spend more money than i should. this isn’t a change, i do this every year but i think it’s one i’m going to keep going because i dont make enough cash but i like food and i like video games. this is really all i spend money on anyway. oh, comic books. lots of comic books.

this year i noticed people’s eyes are getting farther apart. i will call this ‘evolution’. but maybe soon we wont have eyes on the front of our face but the side like some kind of fishy lizard thing. the amount of dates will lower but sex will still happen just as much.

this last year i discovered eggs in a nest and it is how i am starting this year; like the yummy egg in a hole in a toast, i will be a little purple bruised eyed bird baby sticking his head out trying to check shit out. the year will go like it always does, half not bad with lots of shit mixed in, but i will try and react to it differently, like a naive little wet thing that just entered the world ready to give everything a chance. i will either learn to fly, or fried and eaten with some hash browns. delicious.

happy new year

my job is a boring carpet to walk, usually done so in that reverse-zen zombielike state of awareness; aware you hate your job, aware you are tired, aware of everything going on around you and everyone else’s life because your job requires the thought and energy of one percent of your brain. Then thankfully, occassionally, a thing will happen and you can use two or three percent, and one of those days for me was yesterday, when a humped over old man came hump walking into my job.

I didnt pay much attention to him at first, though i guess enough that i could point him out to you if i needed to; his old floppy hat and giant glasses, his warm 70’s couch fabric coat. His stance like a candy cane. It wasnt until i walked by him that i realized his greatness.

He reeked of a diner breakfast.

omletes and coffee and a plate of greasy home fries, this was his scent. it was magnificent and compelling and i couldnt stop smelling him and following him around. i wanted to smell his coat. i wanted to taste his old man head and see if it tasted like syrup.

he left after a half hour of so and with him left the smell of his morning. I miss him.

good morning. i slept 16 hours yesterday. how are you doing?

a girl at my job had one of these.
i almost told her i loved her.

carbonite is a bitch. hi i am back.

i got a job.

i have also not posted because i am lazy

and the book “the strain” sucked the life out of me it is so dryly written. blarf. so blame it on that book.

fitting my mouth would not stop wanting to exlode, perhaps as a reaction to not wanting to stop putting things into it. food, not other delicious things.

hi i update this alot.

the exploding mouth throbbing kept me awake all night into the fatherless morning and the sky got lighter in a camoflage pattern through the trees and i still said ow. i watched golf, the golf that is making long island trafficy and i could have done anything else but instead could do nothing else because pain keeps you still somehow, it should really make you run and scream. it keeps me still.

i woke up after falling asleep (its not always in that order) and woke up again to my brother this time as a shadow in the doorway of my bedroom office room life room and he gifted me this terriffically awesome ric flair figure.

its a fitting gift, as ric flair is awesome and gifted my his awesomeness like a father would give his son, and i dont mean flair’s actual sons, i mean some asshole that is projecting a father status on a wrestling legend that the closest hes even been to was the hallway outside the bathroom he was using where kids were running in and wooing at him. no, i could not be a part of that.

but so today, fathers day, and i have many, i will be celebrating the greatness of ric flair, as should you. just dont get into any road rage incidents please, unless they are really fucking deserving a smack. then go for it.

hi. its a day off for you and get things done for once day for jabby. i have entered into ‘get a bunch of logos done’ time. i have about 5 of them to rock out. brilliant. so im going to do that instead of complaining about the new star trek movie and how it was fucking insipid and how im hearing that the new terminator movie is probably worse than transformers was. yes, children, they do not care about you, only the new version of you to watch the new version of the movie. terrific.

also ive just gotten into gamecenter cx and it threatens to take my life over.

arino versus ghosts and goblins.

into space you shall see a new excuse me comic glowing off the baldness of the moon.